Disabled

Wikipedia defines the term 'disabled' as:

"A disability may be physical, cognitive, mental, sensory, emotional, developmental or some combination of these. Disabilities is an umbrella term, covering impairments, activity limitations, and participation restrictions. An impairment is a problem in body function or structure.

"I could carry on but it's really not necessary! I have 'officially' been classified as disabled. My doctor has said I will probably not be able to work again and accordingly will place such a note in my medical records and has signed a form for me to receive a disabled placard for my car. On the one hand it's quite nice because I get to park close to the stores where I shop, but on the other hand it's horrible to think I am now classified as a disabled person. I know I now use a stick to help maintain my balance while walking, because my balance and coordination are so 'off' but it's a new thing to accept. A new big thing. AGAIN! I wonder how many more things are coming my way, the 'not good' things? I am hoping that I have my quota for now, it certainly seems I have more than enough to deal with right now!

This week has been an incredibly hard one for me. I had two evening meetings back to back at the start of the week, and whether it was coincidence or not (I think not) they knocked me for six. I was so tired, so sore and aching the next day that I could barely walk on Wednesday and awoke in the early hours with a blinding headache. Chuck called in sick for me so I didn't have to worry about getting up early and getting the boys ready for school. I was little better Thursday, so was incredibly grateful to have him home again. Friday was a long day as I had to go to Denver to see my rheumatologist and I am waiting for the results of my blood work right now.

Saturday was a really, really bad day. I suddenly felt like I was going to die! I crawled into bed fully clothed as I was so cold and even pulled an additional quilt on top of me. I tried to sleep but had to get up for a bucket as I thought I would throw up. I lay in bed part awake and part asleep for almost 3 hours when I felt somewhat better and was able to get up. Who knows what all that was about!Today things have been heading a little more towards normal for me, although I am still slightly dizzy and feeling incredibly tired. Chuck is back at work tomorrow, and it's his long week, so no day off until Sunday. I will just get through it as best I can!