Ever since I complained to my rheumatologist last year that my dizziness was getting worse both he and my neurologist have asked me to describe the dizziness. Is the room moving, is my head moving, what exactly is dizzy?
It's very, very hard to determine that. If you get dizzy, you don't stop to analyze it, you just think "Whoa, that's not nice!" I know I can't lean my head back to look up at a shelf, or the ceiling or clouds. I know it's sometimes hard to lean down and look at the floor, but what bit is moving? I have no idea!
So it's a question that has puzzled me for some time and last week, when I was lying in bed unable to sleep, the answer suddenly popped into my head.
My head is a dashboard compass!
You can buy a compass that attaches to your dashboard and inside floats a ball that changes direction as the car turns. Well my head feels like that. It feels like I move my head, and the brain inside (if it is indeed a brain) turns a little later. It seems to float on it's own and pivots at will. Walking is especially hard because my 'inner' head seems to be floating all over the place while my 'outside' head is steady!!
I will be interested to hear what my doctors make of this description, but now I have it worked out I am wondering why it took me so long to come up with the answer, because this analogy is just perfect!!
How sad to have a floating compass as a brain!
